Finally developed an ‘About Me’ page that’s..well… About ME.

To set the stage a little here, I just have to say that I am not very good at creating ‘about me’ pages. So when I sat down (2 hours ago) to write out my page it was like a surge of … me..o_o; coming through the computer and reaching out to you to say HEY! While this draft of an ‘About Me’ is a little bit more personal kind of heavy and not a good depiction of my ‘fun side’ I’m just glad I got some of the really good stuff out there. For those of you lucky enough to stumble across my page, enjoy!

(About Me follows below…)

Me in a nutshell… I am nice, observant, & sometimes explosive.  I have different phases, like the waxing/waning of a moon…o_O. I can be bright & cheery but a little more introspective when I’m sleepy or have a lot on the brain but irregardless it is my aim to treat those that deserve it with respect. Or to put it simply, ‘if you are not the cause of my problems, then you do not deserve to be at the brunt of my discontent.’ and not enough people live that way.

Me, a little more recently… This year, more than any other year before I am on a rocket of self-discovery. It has been a hell of a ride so far and while nothing drastic has happened (i.e. no crazy trips… weird/distasteful tattoos, or tirades of ridiculousness*) but I have had the pleasure (and sometimes, the displeasure) of finding out and exploring my strengths and weaknesses.  As of now, I am a jack of many trades and a master of none but am working on setting myself in the right path so as to have MONEY, a career… and the future that I see myself having.  Despite my past. Now I am speaking up … and talking out about how I feel in everyday situations. I like the results. Its a little daunting…and I’ve encountered some loud resistance to my shared opinions but I will continue to open my ‘big mouth’. If you have something to say, and its worth saying, SAY IT. If its wrong… then you’ve learned its wrong. HOWEVER, I am not at all endorsing negativity; just positivity. n.n

This blog gives me a place to put down my thoughts and have some sort of release.

My education & career goals… I am pursuing an undergrad degree in Biological Sciences. I am extremely sensitive to the plight of women & children in areas like Africa  and other developing nations.  My next step after undergrad, would be to get a Masters in Public Health & Nutrition.

My biggest dream? Medical School; to become a Pediatrician.  Children… they are the future but we, as adults, play the largest role imaginable in building the foundation on which that future is based. & no, this is NOT obvious. Because I am speaking about CHILDREN ALL AROUND THE WORLD. We are all brought into this world by no choice of our own. It is the main responsibility of our parents & other family members to provide the backing and the foundation of our future. Now that task is hard enough, but coupled with things such as war, economic depressions, & failing governments and children & their families are placed in a trying position. What I want to give is care, help, understanding, & love to these children born & caught up in areas like Darfur; To be a loud voice, fighting to stop and prevent horrific genocides like those that occurred in Rwanda (1994); and to bring the gift of medicine with a hand & heart that is open and supportive.

I have often felt alone in life… and I still do. I often wonder “how in the hell am I going to…” and feel despair. But I know that my life is nothing like what many women and have suffered around the world. I would love to have a loving husband & little babies running around at home, but before that time comes I wish to give my time and strengths to the bettering & improvement of the lives of others. And I am working to learn how everyday in small ways. Baby steps. From just learning what patience is, mastering and applying it, to reminding myself of what really matters. I won’t claim to be hell-bent on curing the world of hunger or disease or even of ignorance, but I will claim to be bent on doing what I can (however small it may be) and doing it consistently.

Working with “Doctors without Borders” or something similar would be pretty cool.

— okay. go away now! enough about me.

 

No he can’t read my poker face…

I would much rather see a man break up with a woman instead of keep her & go running behind her back with someone else. There may seem to be a small difference in the scale of the types of heartbreak incurred but, in cases such as these better timing is just well, better. Problem with that however, stems from whether the man in question is merely a coward or a dog. Mentality 1: “Why can’t I just have them both?” Mentality 2:”I don’t want to hurt her.”These are 2 different mentalities because in my world, you do not seriously care about anyone but yourself if you are doing the ‘run-around’. There is hope for you, though; You can go from Mentality 1 to Mentality 2, by: making a decision between the 2+ women, and telling them how you feel. Now I know women can be crazy. And guys can be as well! So be smart about how you tell her, and that part is all on you because you should know how she is.

But anyway…backing up and off of that issue… This post just stems from mild insecurities. But I use the term insecurity loosely because yes, I would want a man I am in a relationship with to just ‘man up’ and let me go…BEFORE he cheats. If he is doing it after the fact, then I just don’t need to know anything happened before then. And further more… ex-girlfriends/sex-partners/make-out buddies just need to stay the hell away.

Don’t keep contact with those women.

And women, don’t keep contact with someone else’s man.

Do not let his girl see you  whining about how he missed telling you happy birthday.

Girl…because if the last I heard was you had a hard time getting over him (and you two weren’t even dating in the first place), if I could have my own, irrational & bitchtastic way, I would want to tell you to

“Shut that crap up and back the hell away.” (But knowledge of those feelings probably won’t make it past this blog.) Times are different now…and no, he is not supposed to come running and leaping to tell your ass happy birthday.

People end up cheating “by mistake” when they do not draw up the right lines & conditions about exes and the kinds of relationships they feel comfortable with their significant other having.

Anyhoo, I digress. I need to go scuttle back under the table & find my dinna…

 

I love this record baybee but I can’t see straight anymore!

Laying here in my bed…blogging from my mobile phone (screen does NOT look that hot, btw). Got my earplugs in so that I’m not disturbed by my noisy suitemates and I’m just working on letting my mind wander and recapping about the day… as I drfit, I think about my boyfriend. Love him. Any weird/negative things that happended today. And what I learned from the incident… about myself and specifically how I am learning to deal with people…shaping/molding my brain for the future. About whatever challenges I may be facing today and/or tomorrow… and how to approach them. And then…right before I completely drift and melt away… think of my dreams & goals that motivate me and keep me focused on what it is I came here to do. Here being mother earth. This absolutely crazy crazy place…dark in so many ways…ye, with a little hope, things can still turn out right…for the fortunate ones. Then, it is out turn to turn around and do for others…others who will need a lot more than just hope.

 

Quick post before a meeting~

Shouldn’t we (as human beings, well… the ‘decent ‘ones will do for now–) work to be able to identify ourselves as first a man or woman, then our ETHNIC BACKGROUNDS, and then whatever else we want? Not: Race, Sex, & whatever else cares to follow?

That can definitely be a true step on the path towards  unity.

(OMG, the built in dictionary doesn’t recognise “Unity” D: )